In memory of Madey Kleve and Logan Scheurmann...
Friday, May 30, 2008
Prayer Request...
As a lot of you know, I made a really good friend two years ago on my mission trip to Rosebud Reservation in Mission, SD. named Diana. She just texted me with news that four friends of hers were in a very serious car crash this week. One of them didn't make it, Madeysen Kleve, who also attended the mission trip with us. This just kind of hits home, because although it was Madey this time, it could have been me or any of my close friends. I'm asking for prayers for Madey's family and friends and also the other three teens in the car; Mitch, Brie and Kacie. Mitch and Kacie are in the hospital, Mitch just got out of intensive care for a collapsed lung, cracked skull and other things and Kacie is still in the ICU as of right now. Brie was driving and wasn't seriously injured, but I would appreciate prayers for all of them. Also, they were all set to graduate this Sunday which unfortunately Madey won't be able to. Kacie is valedictorian and Mitch is salutatorian. Please pray for all their friends and family. It could have easily happened in our community. Praise God it didn't, but remember these friends of mine and their families. Thank you and I love all of you!
Trust? I Think Not...
As the thunder rolls outside
Panic ripples through me in waves
Not because of the pending storm
But the pending storm building up inside
The tornado of “what ifs” and “maybes” hit me
Ripping through the people who can be trusted
And the people that can’t until
Finally realizing only a fine line lies between
At one time trust was second nature
But after each piece of my heart was viciously ripped out
I finally began to understand
No one’s intentions are pure
Resolving to never trust again
I set back out into the cruel world
Where once again I was lured in
And unsurprisingly, hurt again
As routine as this has become, it still hurt
Time went on and the offenders got closer
Until the day came the one I thought I could always count on
Swooped in and killed my remaining trust dead
Though my heart, hardened from incidents of the past
Seemed beyond surprise and agony
It rose to the occasion and in spite of my good act
My heart could take no more, I could not last
With new found resolve
I make my way out of the shadows again
In the back of my mind
Always dreading, always knowing, the hurt will come again
"It takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it."
Panic ripples through me in waves
Not because of the pending storm
But the pending storm building up inside
The tornado of “what ifs” and “maybes” hit me
Ripping through the people who can be trusted
And the people that can’t until
Finally realizing only a fine line lies between
At one time trust was second nature
But after each piece of my heart was viciously ripped out
I finally began to understand
No one’s intentions are pure
Resolving to never trust again
I set back out into the cruel world
Where once again I was lured in
And unsurprisingly, hurt again
As routine as this has become, it still hurt
Time went on and the offenders got closer
Until the day came the one I thought I could always count on
Swooped in and killed my remaining trust dead
Though my heart, hardened from incidents of the past
Seemed beyond surprise and agony
It rose to the occasion and in spite of my good act
My heart could take no more, I could not last
With new found resolve
I make my way out of the shadows again
In the back of my mind
Always dreading, always knowing, the hurt will come again
"It takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it."
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
What to Say...
What are you supposed to say
To someone who’s been there
Through the good times and the bad
How are you supposed to thank
Someone who makes you smile
And makes you forget you’re sad
How are you supposed to describe
The person who goes the extra mile
Just to light up your day
What are you supposed to say
To the person who to you, finally shows
Sometimes people do come into your life to stay
How are you supposed to thank
The person who always knows
Just what to say or to do
How are you supposed to describe
The person who is so respected
And to herself stays true
What are you supposed to say
To the person who has affected
Monumental choices you have made
How are you supposed to thank
The person that unknowingly impacted your decision
Whether it would be worth it if you stayed
How are you supposed to describe
The person who helped you to envision
Just who you want to be
I really don’t know how to thank
The person who’s been there to watch me fly and to watch me fall
So I just want to tell her that her presence in my life
Is the best gift of them all
To someone who’s been there
Through the good times and the bad
How are you supposed to thank
Someone who makes you smile
And makes you forget you’re sad
How are you supposed to describe
The person who goes the extra mile
Just to light up your day
What are you supposed to say
To the person who to you, finally shows
Sometimes people do come into your life to stay
How are you supposed to thank
The person who always knows
Just what to say or to do
How are you supposed to describe
The person who is so respected
And to herself stays true
What are you supposed to say
To the person who has affected
Monumental choices you have made
How are you supposed to thank
The person that unknowingly impacted your decision
Whether it would be worth it if you stayed
How are you supposed to describe
The person who helped you to envision
Just who you want to be
I really don’t know how to thank
The person who’s been there to watch me fly and to watch me fall
So I just want to tell her that her presence in my life
Is the best gift of them all
Blessed
It’s funny how casually people come into your life
Most walk in and walk out just as fast
But some stay awhile and teach a lesson
While others are perfect for the stage you’re at
Many people have walked in and out of my life
To teach me things like forgiveness and how to make friendships last
Though most walk in to eventually walk out
There are others that don’t quite go so fast
The ones that walk in to stay
In the end are most important of all
They’re there through all the lessons learned
And to pick you up when you fall
They are the ones I won’t forget
As I go on with my life
Because I know when the darkness comes
That they will be my light
As I get older and start out into the world
I remember what I’ve been taught
I’ve learned to laugh, love and dream
But most of all to be thankful for all I’ve got
With all that I have, I’m very blessed
Because most kids just don’t have
People to love and to support them
Like the amazing people that I’ve had
There’s no way these words can describe
All the things you have done for me
I just hope that someday I have the strength
To save someone like you saved me
“God determines who walks into your life; it’s up to you to decide who you let leave, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go.”
Most walk in and walk out just as fast
But some stay awhile and teach a lesson
While others are perfect for the stage you’re at
Many people have walked in and out of my life
To teach me things like forgiveness and how to make friendships last
Though most walk in to eventually walk out
There are others that don’t quite go so fast
The ones that walk in to stay
In the end are most important of all
They’re there through all the lessons learned
And to pick you up when you fall
They are the ones I won’t forget
As I go on with my life
Because I know when the darkness comes
That they will be my light
As I get older and start out into the world
I remember what I’ve been taught
I’ve learned to laugh, love and dream
But most of all to be thankful for all I’ve got
With all that I have, I’m very blessed
Because most kids just don’t have
People to love and to support them
Like the amazing people that I’ve had
There’s no way these words can describe
All the things you have done for me
I just hope that someday I have the strength
To save someone like you saved me
“God determines who walks into your life; it’s up to you to decide who you let leave, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go.”
Monday, February 25, 2008
The Same Game
With pity in their eyes
They tell me things will be ok
Another relationship meets its demise
Because no one knows what to say
The hurt that surrounds me
Is because of what I am
I’m not who they want me to be
Who knows if I will be again
They all promise change will not happen
That they’ll love me all the same
But once they hear of this terrible action
They all play the same game
The name of the game-
Avoid any real interaction
Nothing can ever be the same
Try to be real careful
So you won’t be the one to blame
Averting your eyes from my arms
Your forced to look at my face
You don’t know how the look of alarm
Can make my heart race
Behind my back people ask
If there’s anything wrong with me
But they don’t know I’ve put on my best mask
So unless I show them, they’ll never see
People ask where they come from
If they came from a dog or cat
The lies can be believable to some
But most just smell a “rat”
You see the recognition in their eyes
Then the disgust and fear
And with a pity sigh
Another friend disappears
Will I ever live again
Without the constant feeling
The evil will sneak in again
And send my whole life reeling
I wish that someday it will leave
That I could live with no doubts or fears
That in goodness I could totally believe
Because now the moment nears
The moment where I need to make a decision
That will affect my future
The decision whether to give up this so called sin
Or forever live my life in torture
I know what I want to say
I know what I have to do
But the more I say another day
I lose another day to start new
So right now I’m going to start
To try and turn over this new leaf
I know it will take a lot of support and heart
But right now, in God I lay my belief
They tell me things will be ok
Another relationship meets its demise
Because no one knows what to say
The hurt that surrounds me
Is because of what I am
I’m not who they want me to be
Who knows if I will be again
They all promise change will not happen
That they’ll love me all the same
But once they hear of this terrible action
They all play the same game
The name of the game-
Avoid any real interaction
Nothing can ever be the same
Try to be real careful
So you won’t be the one to blame
Averting your eyes from my arms
Your forced to look at my face
You don’t know how the look of alarm
Can make my heart race
Behind my back people ask
If there’s anything wrong with me
But they don’t know I’ve put on my best mask
So unless I show them, they’ll never see
People ask where they come from
If they came from a dog or cat
The lies can be believable to some
But most just smell a “rat”
You see the recognition in their eyes
Then the disgust and fear
And with a pity sigh
Another friend disappears
Will I ever live again
Without the constant feeling
The evil will sneak in again
And send my whole life reeling
I wish that someday it will leave
That I could live with no doubts or fears
That in goodness I could totally believe
Because now the moment nears
The moment where I need to make a decision
That will affect my future
The decision whether to give up this so called sin
Or forever live my life in torture
I know what I want to say
I know what I have to do
But the more I say another day
I lose another day to start new
So right now I’m going to start
To try and turn over this new leaf
I know it will take a lot of support and heart
But right now, in God I lay my belief
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