High School

High school. It’s where you find out who you are. Are you a leader, a follower or a loner? Do you care what others say and let them hurt you, or are you comfortable enough in yourself that you don’t care what people say or think? Are you that person that everyone wishes they could be? Or are you that person that people pretend to not see in the hallway? What is the difference between these types of people? Their looks, their personality? Deep down, it doesn’t matter whether you are considered the “popular person” or the “unpopular person” it’s who you are. It’s the way you treat others, whether you can see through their looks or the wall they put up and get to know the real them.

Some might consider me as someone from the “popular” crowd and I have never been able to accept that. To me, that group is a group that makes fun of people and doesn’t get to know anyone outside their own “group” of friends. I grew up with the people from that group; they’ve been my friends ever since elementary school. I never asked to be part of that “group,” that’s just the people that I made friends with when I was young. We were just friends; they were all I thought I had, up until I got into high school. But, as I said, high school is where you find out who you are. It’s where you leave the past behind and become your own person. They became their own people, and I became my own. I’m not saying I don’t talk with them or hang out with them but that’s all there is to the relationship. It isn’t any deeper than sports or class.

I’m becoming my own person, but I’m going a different way than they are. I don’t fit in with them anymore; I don’t know exactly where I fit in. I have a different group of friends for everything. I have my “basketball friends,” my “band friends”, my “school friends,” my “youth group friends, “ even my “track friends.” But, that is so hard; to go through the year, and keep switching “groups” of friends. Out of all those groups of friends, there are 4 friends, true friends that I could count on for anything. I could call them in the middle of the night and they’d be there, they would be there to talk me out of doing anything stupid, they are there to help me out and they aren’t afraid to tell me how it is. Those friends are the most important of all. I would rather have 4 real friends, then have millions of others.

I don’t even know when I changed; from thinking I had no one except those girls who treated me like crap. Now, I am really good friends with people I never thought in a million years I’d be friends with. They are the ones I look forward to seeing everyday, not that group of friends that I thought I couldn’t live without. They are the ones that make me laugh, when I don’t want to, they are the ones that can look me in the eye and make me tell them what is wrong. I can look at them, and tell they are asking me because they care, they care about me. I never thought I’d have that again, after that group of friends, after Jess. I never thought I would be able to go to school and look forward to seeing people. I never knew there was anyone else out there, anyone else out there that cared.


Me, Sarah and Jess


us.. haha